I HATE HOME!!!

I understand that they've shown me love, but what is love when all you feel in return is Hate?

I honestly dont know where to begin but all i'm sayin is that I HATE THIS LIFE. I know I should be thankful and all but im only thankful for havin my friends. I hate my family especially my mamma. Everyone always says family is everything and they always boasting about there family is so loving and all well welcome to my fucked up world where family is  nothing to me. I want to love  em but I cant they've ruined my life and each day its like a mission for them I want to leave. My mum told me to get out yesterday I should've my best friend offerend me a place at hers for awhile im sure ma other friends dont mind alternationg its the holidays...I should have taken that ooportunity im just waiting for it again. I hate everything and everyone...basically I just hate HOME. I went out to study today for my last exam and when I came home i felta surge of sadness and wanted to do nothing but cry, scream and yell and hit soemthing. I still want to do it now. I dont get why there doing this. They're just restricting me from my outside life. I hate coming home I just want to be out all the time, even if its in my  front yard I'll feel  better. I seriously cant take it. The problem is what do I do now? I wanna be outta here. Somebody save me, I need a miricle and I need it now. I keep praying for God to make my mum threaten me to get out again coz I will. Seriously this is effed up. It basically ,y mother im hatin on and my sister  fuckkkkk she thinks its all about her. She thinks everything is always my fault and my mum just plays along. Yes I understand that they have shown me love. But what is love when all you feel in return is Hate?

All I want is a solution and I want it NOW!!!

On a side not ::: I got a new job at some stupid Hardware store but I like it, it's good pay and the hours are good. Also i'm gettin ma nails done either different colours or lime green just the tips...ACRYLIC

RISE 'n' GRIND always
xx