Black and White Gold

I HATE HOME!!!

I understand that they've shown me love, but what is love when all you feel in return is Hate?

I honestly dont know where to begin but all i'm sayin is that I HATE THIS LIFE. I know I should be thankful and all but im only thankful for havin my friends. I hate my family especially my mamma. Everyone always says family is everything and they always boasting about there family is so loving and all well welcome to my fucked up world where family is  nothing to me. I want to love  em but I cant they've ruined my life and each day its like a mission for them I want to leave. My mum told me to get out yesterday I should've my best friend offerend me a place at hers for awhile im sure ma other friends dont mind alternationg its the holidays...I should have taken that ooportunity im just waiting for it again. I hate everything and everyone...basically I just hate HOME. I went out to study today for my last exam and when I came home i felta surge of sadness and wanted to do nothing but cry, scream and yell and hit soemthing. I still want to do it now. I dont get why there doing this. They're just restricting me from my outside life. I hate coming home I just want to be out all the time, even if its in my  front yard I'll feel  better. I seriously cant take it. The problem is what do I do now? I wanna be outta here. Somebody save me, I need a miricle and I need it now. I keep praying for God to make my mum threaten me to get out again coz I will. Seriously this is effed up. It basically ,y mother im hatin on and my sister  fuckkkkk she thinks its all about her. She thinks everything is always my fault and my mum just plays along. Yes I understand that they have shown me love. But what is love when all you feel in return is Hate?

All I want is a solution and I want it NOW!!!

On a side not ::: I got a new job at some stupid Hardware store but I like it, it's good pay and the hours are good. Also i'm gettin ma nails done either different colours or lime green just the tips...ACRYLIC

RISE 'n' GRIND always
xx

Night time satisfaction...

I love how you can understand my physical sensation. Your breath against my skin gives me a sexual vibration...

Ugghhh

Ugghh...

That is all I can say right now I dunno bout the rest of the day. Just finished one of my exams and so glad it over. Didn't study much for it but why should I when I aint interested in a topic!!! #ImJustsayin
Got an exam tomorrow and I'm being honest when I say this but I always walked out of the lectures it always bored me. The lecturer was funny at times but the subject zzzzzzzzzz.

Moving onto to something more effin interesting. KID INK one of ma fav new rappers is releasing his mixtape CRASH LANDING at 12am tonight *bloody, boring Australia- that has no hip hop culture- time* So excited he is so adorable...correction I WOULD TAP THAT!!! Also NELLY one of ma other God damn sexy mofo's is realising his album 5.0 Nov 16th.... Am I excited well thats what the CAPS LOCK is for :)

Off topic::: I hate uni whores. My definition of uni whores isn't those that come to uni everyday and study day and night. No there called nerds #straightup. Uni whores are those that look dumb and socialise 24/7 but have the neatest writing (random) and can ACE  afreakin exam without studying...BITCH BITCH BITCH BITCH. Yes I am jealous....

Off topic#2:::: I love boiz that have tattz on em but only if they are chocolate coloured I dont like white boiz with tattz they jus look like hard core wannabe's. Meh tahts just me judging people. Gonna pulla another all nighter tonight COFFEE+RED BULL+ FOOD+ Cram time......then Im done for this week

Oh wait more info Friday Night Lights by J.Cole is an effin dope and illest mixtape as well as Well Done by ma sexy man Tyga..... Can i hit it in the morning #random

xx RISE n GRIND always

I've always had a passion for photography, I think I might take it serious...

TRIGGER

Ok new day new beginning, only one thing on my mind......

TREMAINE ALDON NEVERSON aka Trey Songz. I adore this guy, his voice is so angelic and harmony pours through my veins when I hear him sing. I love how he makes songz so meaningful and passionate. He makes ma day when im down and no I dont have an obsession im just a fan who likes his music. Moving onto something serious...THE BODY. When I say the body I mean Trey's body so so sexy it makes me feel intoxicated (over exxageration).

"While the words Passion, Pain and Pleasure immediately invoke sexual thoughts, for me they have become somewhat of a personal mantra because they so accurately describe this time in my life,” says Trey Songz.
-Passion, Pain, Pleasure

On a side note:::: I have an exam tomorrow my first one of the three. I dont like this unit much it was too hard and random it didnt make sense the topics were too broad. THINKING HURTS MY BRAIN.... Jammin to 'Neighbours know my name' -Trey Songz to help sooth ma brain
xx RISE N GRIND always

The Beginning

First time bloggin lets get it on.....


Imma dreamer. That is all. I'm an obsessor. I get hooked onto something and cant let it go until; something else comes along. I love manieceshe ma baby doll and she tha only one I love from am fam. Yes I know I sound like a bitch but I guress thats coz I am. BITCH LOUD AND PROUD.

Ma fam haven't done anything for me except given me a roof over ma head and I thnk thats jus coz they be feelin sorry for me. I mean I love some of em coz ma mamma brought me into this world and ma bro always pays for ma concert tix but they way im treated and the way I live is fukked up. I always say whats on ma mind, I dont give two fucks what anyone thinks or says bout me. I love ma friends they mean everything yto me but sometimes they dont feel tha same. I guess everyone is like that not everyone be feelin tha same as you want em to. I loev to travel and am going to MIAMI next year to study for six months n if I like it will stay for a year. Love all ma twitter boo's they make ma day and love audible art.

Like I said MUSIC is ma soul and will always be. when ma earphones are in, reality is switched off and ma imaginatiuon runs deep. I love writing but not books or songs just random lyrics whatever is on ma mind. Music is my life and ma life is Music. If only i had a sexy voice to go with it. I have a passion for dance all types but especially Hip Hop. When ma songz come on I cant control maself I have to move or sing its just tha way it is.... 
I study criminology at university or some may call it college. Only doin it coz its tha closest thing I like that ma rents will be satisfied with..EDUCATION is their passion. Baiscally im livin their dream... I love drama always wanted to do acting sonce I can remeber dont tell many people coz they be thinkin it dont get me knowhere, but one day hopefull I will prove those bishes wrong....

Ok thats enuf for one day got exams in like two days n im freakin bloggin
xx RISE N GRIND always